My Life

2009-07-12T07:50:00.001-07:00

Planning to closed down my blog soon.
Guess too many disturbance from outside people.
At the same time, there are too many things for me to handle, where will i find the time to blog?
Remove my friends' link so that nobody could disturb them.
Cheers guys! =)
Happy journey!

~End of my stories~

2009-07-11T10:57:00.000-07:00

Every night, before i closed my eyes. I could easily think of someone.
Someone who i failed to keep the promise to.
I'm really sorry that i broke her heart.
Even though is a short term relationship, yet i found myself fallen crush. (shy)
Within this week, i always looking forward to each day of schooling, hopefully could see who i wanted to see each day.
But each day i saw her, i was completely a coward. Restricting myself just to forward and to say a word 'hello'.
Hais... at least i could see her smile happily with her friends, even if just by the view was just by her side or the back of her. Its always something brighten up my day.
也许，这是一种解药，但我每晚都在服下的毒药。
或许，我该谈兄弟，也不谈情吧。
以上都是从终极三国领悟到的。^^如此如此。。。这般这般。。。

2009-07-06T09:37:00.000-07:00

Today was the first day of school.
As usual, going to school alone and attended lessons with classmates.
But today, i was kinda bored as i didn't got the chances to see who i wish to see in school.
I saw her around afternoon time yet i don't have the courage to approach her just to say a Hello.
Told one of my friend about my holidays happening.
He's a great listener. He gave the same advises as what others do.
Bombing sms from my ERP lecturer. There's a system in ITE for teachers that they could use computer to message their students regarding exams or anything.
Due to my class advisor was away for courses, my ERP lecturer took his position for a week until next Tuesday.
Met Winston after school for dinner along with Angeline.
Went to the library to borrow a book "Poor dad Rich dad; TEENS".
Its really a good book, its related about how teens get rich even when they grow up becoming an adult. Good recommend for those who wish to be entrepreneur.
Thats all for now=)
Tomorrow after school, i will be heading down to Ubi driving centre to apply for PDL=)

2009-07-02T06:02:00.000-07:00

昨晚，我跟妈妈聊了我和她的过去。

才真的领悟到原来她真的不适合我，

妈说：缘分到，自然会留在你身边。缘分走了，拉也拉不住的。

她还说，这种女孩不要也算了。她对你也不专注。

相比起来，我看你付出的也比她多几倍。别再浪费你的心思了。

妈还说：你是个专注的人。她看来一点也不专注，或许她在外头还有些男生你也不懂。

听着听着，我也觉得妈说的话很有道理。

难怪妈会那么疼爱爸，他们还在一起了三十年。

真想像爸一样，会找到还有爱着，一位真真懂得去爱与谅解自己的男生的女人。

2009-06-30T11:24:00.000-07:00

我为何还对她指明不呼呢？
难道那些回意那么难忘吗？
还是我对她还有感觉？
每次看到她，恨也好爱也好，都不知道我感觉在往哪方？！
她的行为一次比一次的差，想她到底要真么样？
关心她也错，难道不能简简单单吗？为何要想得那么复杂？
为什么不能像当初一样，开开心心的过？
真的好失望！付出的再也拿不回来。
受苦的人，往往都是付出最多的。
希望外面的男生们别像我一样那么笨，喜欢上这种女孩。

Today, i went to straighten my hair plus trim-ing my hair to get a new hair style.
Along with Winston and Angeline.
At first, i met with Winston at the Century square arcade during 3 plus.
Was watching Winston, playing the Tekken with one of his friend and some strangers.
An unbelievable thing was that he won 7 rounds in a row! Cool man!
After so many challenge, we headed down to Yio Chu Kang to meet with Angeline and went to the Winston aunt's saloon.
Took about an hour plus to complete my wanted hair style...XD
Tomorrow, i might be accompany Angeline for her hair treatment.
And also, i would like to bring my IPhone for service.
First thing, i will like to request for new Iphone cover.
Secondly, a replacement for the 'silent' key.
Lastly, changing the software in it as the phone is getting laggy.

Recently, i was burying myself with Maple private server (SummerStory).
Its quite a nice game, just tat it's always lagging. Argh!
My character reborned once while the rest of them don't know reborned how many times already. hais... such a slow gamer am i...

I guess that's all for now. What to do for future... hais... Mr. Stubborn really need some encouragement.

2009-06-29T00:01:00.000-07:00

I'm regret... Had a terrible relationship with her before.
At first, i had no regret been with her but now i got full of regret.
No matter wat people said bad things about her, i didn't take it in mind.
Now i know why people said bad things about her. I reflected...
Why am i so stubborn that paying all these price?
我为什么当初付出那么多?
为什么那时一直迁就她？
A girl who was flirted by 8 guys and tot that she had more relationship experience. What a joke!
Didn't she realized that actually her last ex isn't flicting with her?
Coward shit... Don't even dare to talk to me whlie having her friends to talk to me?
Make your day and call the police, as if those police will do these stupid thing for you. dumb ass!
不要以为本大爷不开口，就把我当病猫！
发火时，别怪我冷血！

PS: Pardon me for hacking in, btw this is winston here; beginning and the last conclusion were quite acceptable , however in the center portion could be abit harsh, so i would advice that you keep it with in yourself. if you want , del it.
For readers, an apology in the place of this blog owner joey, just treat the above comment as an perceived individual opinion of his.

2009-06-26T09:43:00.000-07:00

To my ex
All i wanted was just to concern you. It is such troublesome to you.
You got the bloody hell complained to Winston.
Don't think I don't even know anything ok.
Why not show your guts to me and complain or even shout in front of my face!
Is it wrong to concern a girl who was my ex-gf before?
What a bloody shit attitude!
I don't even mind that you don't even give a damn to reply me for just a msg.
WTF!
This matter is just between the two of us and why in the hell do you complain to Winston!
Is it that you want to bring this into a serious matter or just want to get more attention?
Dumb!
Ps: here to butt in again, she didnt complain but informed me about some life journal with her daily life, concern is okay for ex; but please take this to mind "caring for someone is right, but if he/she dont like the idea, it's of no diff to harassment"
Cheers joey!
=)

2009-06-24T09:06:00.000-07:00

Ladies and Gentlemen,
Our guy here, Mr.Stubborn has PASSED his FTT. (Around of applause)
^^
Yes, i had passed FTT today.
15.15hrs started the test and i ended at 15.37hrs.
I took a total of 17mins to complete the test with a PASS.
Right now, i'm looking forward to my Practical test after maybe 20-30 lessons.
Hopefully, i could take the test before my birthday. =)
At the initial stage, when taking my e-trail, all my papers were failed. 84-86%
I came to a disappointment and thought it will end up failing my FTT.
At 15.15hrs, i was slowly taking my test.
About 10mins ltr, the first guy who was sitting on the first seat on my row (I was on the fourth seat).
Follow by second; third seat.
15.37hrs, i checked about 30 plus questions to confirm my answer were correct.
At that point, i bought up my confident using my right index finger and pressed 'End Test' button.
Holding my two hands together in a posture like praying for my granny. Closing my both eyes~
A second ltr, i opened my both eyes and 'Yesh!'. PASSED
The LCD shown 'PASS' in big and bold font.
I was like... 本大爷，是没有东西办不到的！哈哈哈!
Went out of the classroom and print my result slip.
Gave a immdiate call to Winston but i lied to him that i failed.
What i said was... 本大爷，fail!
He replied, huh... how come fail?
I said again, 本大爷lei, where will fail de... haha... 没有东西是办不到的! XD
Next person been informed, Cassandra jie.
She is going to treat me include us, Eileen and hongkian with Bens and Jerry!
Do take note ar! ^^
That's all about today=) So happy today!

Two days ago, my groupies include me went to watch 'Drag me to hell'.
I think the movie is really impressive. Watchable=)
But i think the girls are having hard time. XD
Guess the girls are hating me ba. sorry sorry ^^
Well recommend to those who like or prefer to have a horror movie for the day.
Cheers=)

2009-06-19T09:09:00.000-07:00

Hey hiie...
I am back from K.L.
I went with Winston, M.X and Angeline.
Did enjoy my trip. Shop around, Eat like no other ppl business and most importantly, having fun =)
First day, we went to many places around K.L.
Our hotel is Siwee Garden Hotel.
Didnt really found anything interest me to buy.
Perhaps those fashion at Malaysia isn't up to my standard ba.
K.L is surely a heaven food place. Wow... tell you guys something, i realized that i gained more fats after this trip. XD
Second day, we woke up late about 10 plus and went to Genting.
Funny things had happened during the Genting.
I also brought something for eileen. Shhh... can't tell her what i bought for her^^
We didn't went to the theme park but we still enjoyed ourselves at there.
Wish could go Genting once more and this time i will not regret again. XD Right M.X?
We returned K.L around 7plus and did our last shopping at the plaza. (Forget the name of the plaza) =P
After that, we went back to our hotel again.
Last day, Winston and Angeline went to collect her bag (Prada)1.3K leh ^^
wherelse, i asked m.x to bring me to a shop where they bought their shirt.
I bought a shirt with (I'm with stupid -->), m.x bought a shirt with (I think he's a gay<--) and Winston bought a mickey and something cute on the shirts. =)
After that, we went to our hotel to pack our things and ready to return Singapore.
We reached Singapore about 7 plus in the evening and realized that my line was been cut off but still can receive incoming call.
I bought a pack of laopo biscult for my passed away granny. As soon as we reached, along with Winston and m.x, we went to my granny house. They waited for me at the void deck as i went to her house to pray and offered her the biscults.
After i done, i went back to meet Winston and M.X, off we went home. =)

2009-06-13T09:38:00.000-07:00

There is something kept in me for quite a time. Why should i fakes admit on that issue?
even i said its fake, there wont be any endings.
Anyway, its already over. I guess i will just keep it to myself. =)

Days after my granny's wake, another issue bothers me every day. I miss my granny yet the thing is i don't want my family to 'scatter'. U all know wat i mean, like a country without the emperor. The country will slowly break into pieces.

will update soon.

2009-06-11T10:27:00.000-07:00

My granny had already over yet i still missing my granny.
I dont wish to post wat happened during the wake over here.
Last night, my relative and i were waiting for my granny to come back.
We believe that every people died will come back after 7days of their death and they will stay for 49 days.
We bought her favourite food and drinks. Start praying.
Today we suppose to pray for her at 11am but i didnt attend due to schooling.

My god jie said that i become skinner. I also realize that i lost my weight over these days after my granny death. Perhaps i didn't have the mood for any meals.

I will end here, will update soon.

2009-06-05T09:44:00.000-07:00

There are few things i wanna say today.
There is a good and a bad new.
I will like to say the good new first.

The good new is i PASSED my BTT(05/06/09) at Ubi driving center.
Along with Winston accompany.
I got two E-trail before the real test.
One was at 15.15 - 16.05 and the other was at 16.15 - 17.15.
Come to the real test held on 17.40.
I was the third person out of the classroom and i put about 14 minutes on the test. =)
I told myself, i don't want to enter that classroom again for BTT and i told myself, i want to get PASS for my granny.

Now comes the bad new, my granny just passed away this morning. Her death time was 06.41am.
A call from my third uncle this morning.
I didn't know until i came back from school.
I forced my father to tell me the truth of my granny condition.
My father doesn't want to tell me this, scared the new will affect my test.
Actually in the morning, i heard from my father said that the hospital needs my granny IC and documents about her. I had expected something bad.
Today was the first day of her wake. Her wake will be until tuesday(9/6/09).
When i saw her, i became so emotional.
She cares for me the most as i'm the eldest grandchildren.
Everytime when i visited her, i could see her greatest smile on her face.
She always cooked my favourite chicken wings.
I said i wanted to treat her for mother's day dinner but i nv do so as i was working.
I didn't go for her birthday celebration.
I wanted to see her so much but its all too late.
Hais...
Won't be updating that soon, will be away for my granny wake.
BYE

2009-06-04T10:57:00.000-07:00

Didn't went to school today. Reason is very simple; i overslept
Zzzz....
I had my night study with winston last night until 12 plus and reached home about 1plus.
Woke up this afternoon around 3-4plus.
About 6 plus plus, i went to tampines mall courts for stamping my time card.
Passed my ex house makes me rmb wat we had before.
Memories flashes back every moment... so clearly... so real...
Reached tampines mall, i saw my ex there with her friend.
Didn't say hiie to her but kinda emotions again.
I just don know wat to say about my feeling.
I admit, is quite hard for me to get over.
Everytime i saw her, i don't know whether am i angry or feeling happy?
Is like... so puzzling... Didn't really expected to see her and moreover i was thinking of her at the moment.
Something also wondering me, where did she get that dress? Guess someone bought for her? Might be a guy? Hais... forget it...
Nobody will fall for me. Even my current ex also left me. I am definitely gone case one.
Headed down to office in the evening, met Winston and he showed me his new bought sweater.
Hais... made me jealous again... I WANT TO BE RICH!!
Handed the time card and warrent card to our boss.
Slacked about an hour and headed down to tiong bahru to meet Winston's gf.
After that, made our way back to punggol for our supper. Bla bla bla...
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Now i going to recommend people to read a book.
A book about leverage, RETIRE RICH RETIRE YOUNG.
HOW TO GET RICH QUICKLY and STAY RICH FOREVER!
AURTHOR: RICH DAD's
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Tml i will explain more about this book=)
Having BTT test tml. Shall head to bed now ^^
Nights! Zzzz...

2009-06-03T10:51:00.000-07:00

I gave up. I can totally gave up everything.
I know i won't stand a chance. So, i just gave up today.
I put all my last hope and confessed to her today.
Of cus, i know the result. As you guys know, I'm just way too stubborn.
That's why i still take the route.
There won't be any girls like me or even fall for me.
I'm just way too weak, stupid, dumb and ugly!
First, my second ex just don't want me.
Second, my current ex. Maybe I'm really tat bad and doesn't suit her.
I wish all these doesn't happen. I wish just to stay on relationship happily and last long.
I tot my second ex could gave me the longest, but i was way too dumb and contributed too much on that relationship. Right now, i fallen too deep.
For my third relationship, i shown no effort on the relationship. I could blame myself for causing.
I'm tired and so worn out.
Prehaps letting my current ex go, would a greater choice to let both of us in the happiness.
For my second ex, i don know wth is she thinking about? She tot that nv been contacting her, is sound more like treating her as a stranger which I'm disagree with tat.
I have to take care of my granny which she might be gone at any moment.
Basically, i always treated her as a friend. Yes, in the past i couldn't accept her as a friend, tats because i still have my feeling for her.
Now her words are out and mean. I granted her wish. She should be happier.
Hais... There is just no words to describe her.
Hidden in the darkness whereby nobody will understand wat i feeling now.
Waiting for the sunshine to raise again. But i guess it takes more than a century to raise.
Just way too tired, so please... Don't wake me up again.

2009-05-31T10:35:00.000-07:00

To my current gf, although we just broke up:)

I know you might be thinking that i am a bad guy, also that you tot you were blind to get into a wrong relationship with guy which is me.
I wish to tell you face to face that you are not a replacement of my ex. I know it well.
You do feel that you are a replacement.
Yes, i know that all what i done is like making you feel uncomfortable, feel as if acting as a replacement.
But do you know that starting of our relationship, i was trying to improve our feelings for each other and our relationship.
Just that i never said anything out only.
I wish to said those words from the bottom of my heart but i was too shy to do so.
Plus recently happening things had already made you stressed. I am srry.
I know my actions are not good enough to prove that you are not a replacement.
I am srry.
About those songs i sang before to you; yes i sang before to my ex.
My reason is that i don't know wat songs i could sing to you. I actually tried to find a few better songs to sing for you. Properly i know alittle songs ba, thats why i sang those songs that i usually sing or sang to my ex. I'm srry!
Do you rmb that i said something to you?!
I said that i didn't officially confess and propose to you for a relationship.
I actually planned something surprise and words to say during our 1st month.
I wanted to make something unforgettable for you.
I started to think those surprise when we were about 4days tgt.
All I tot was waiting for our 1st month to arrive. =)
Hopefully you will see this post and hope that you will understand, you are not a replacement =)

2009-05-31T10:27:00.001-07:00

Things are solved at last.
There are things, i wanna say but i didnt say during afternoon.

To my ex,
Try to listen to my advise. I don't lie to you in my life.
I won't want you to get into a wrong route.
Hope that you will understand what i told you at the park.
I didn't lie to you when we were still together. You can ask yourself and everybody around me.
Basically, i wanted to grant your wish=)
You do know how much you value to me too and how much i offered in our past relationship.
I have confident in my life and my feeling.
Hope that my words will stay within you and me.

Another post will be for my current gf, although we just broke off today. (Look up^^)

2009-05-30T08:01:00.000-07:00

Just back from work; and seriously i think to notify

there's a someone that's a no-brainer using my nick "Mr.Stubborn" to spam some nonsense in tagbox

By the way; the reason is simply that i am at work during 1pm-9.30pm how in hell would i tag at this time;

act of no-brainer ; thinking of no-brainer

p.s: i am sorry to those who are affected by the spams

2009-05-28T10:35:00.000-07:00

我很累，真的好累。多希望停下脚步，别再走了。
最近有好多搞破坏的小鬼出现来搞破坏。
全都是我前女友搞出来的，要得到别人的注意力与同情她。
这件事到底要闹多久？
很烦！很烦！好累好累！
还以为对自己说，有一个新开始的生活就会跟美好。
但看起来，是一次比一次还来得糟。
现在我想，女朋友和别人都可以不相信我。
但只要还有兄弟，家人和我认识的朋友们都相信我。
我已经心满意住了。
多想回到过去，当初刚和我前女友认识的时候，好好听家人和兄弟们的劝告。
我就不会落到这个地步了。
今天因该是开心的一天，但没想到的事发生了。hais..
算了，就把我留在一边好了。这就是我注定的人生吧。

2009-05-24T10:28:00.000-07:00

i don care whether anybody talking bad about me.
As long as i know myself well and truth to myself.
There is nothing that can change my mind.
No matter wat my past had been, hopefully to start wake up now and walk forward for my future.
Brothers had been given me advise and they are true.
Its really a deep disappointment in my past.
Much like banging my head towards a thick wall.
Our thinking is much different, a super high and a super low.
Basically, i can see and handle two situations wherelse she's more in-capable of handling one situation person.
(mean no offends but is quite true)
Hopefully my life will be greater than ever. =)
Its a greatest memories but its aso a greatest fault within it! Take care!

2009-05-22T10:24:00.000-07:00

Today fell sick, flu and slight headache. tats why nv attend school today.
Had some chat with my ex.
i wanna be with her so much. Is like unable to forget about her.
Recently, there are alot of guys woo-ing her which makes me so worried..
i have changed for good, why cant she just believe me for once more?
anyway i didnt do the worst thing to her or even in my life...
I didnt even ask for SEX from her and she just keep saying this word frm her mouth as if i need those thing?!
Huh??
All i want is to love her, i am not those guys who gets into relationship for just sex?
Wat i want is to care, concern, love and cherish her. I am not those flirt and desperate!

Met Winston and the rest at hougang plaza. Today's topic makes me pissed off. Somehow is like pointing all fingers on me!
Hais... I just wanna go back the past to be with my ex and cherish her ever again.
God is just treating me too unfair.

These months, i felt myself so unlucky.
Firstly, my gf left me.
Secondly, Things bad happened within BODs or can say HPF?
Third, my granny laying in the hospital now, in dangerous condition.

Trying to adv my blogshop, using msn messager and even tag on others blogshop.
I even used email-ing but doesnt seems to have respond.
HAIS...

I wish to end my life!

2009-05-18T22:48:00.000-07:00

Recently i was busying on my blogshop.
Oh ya forgotten to post it here.
Yes, my blogshop is finally opened but sad thing is that the spree is almost over.
Right now, the spree left two more days before it ends.
Do visit and support my blogshop=)
http://friends-collections.blogspot.com

Felt so tired and worn out. I vomited on the saturday morning. O.O
First time felt so terrible in the morning.
Felt so restless during workin period.
I wish to give up. Seriously, giving up my whole life.
Why do i have to born in tis world? is much suffering. pls take me away.

The gal who i loved, will nv come back to me again.
So many guys waiting for her. So worried for her.
Even some of her godbrother confessed to her.
i am totally down. What should i do?
I cant put her aside. Is totally cruel to myself.
i tried to show my sincere to her. But nth seems to be changing.

This world is totally not suitable for me.
I wish to end it.

You put drugs on me and i was once drunk under ur drugs
When u woke me up, don't u think was too late?
Now the drugs turns into needles and keep poking into me
Is much suffering than ever before.
Worn out~ So tired!
Wish there will be a time machine for me to go back when we were still tgt.

2009-05-04T09:43:00.000-07:00

Today, i should be in school. Unfortunately, I was away for Basic Theory Test.
Still in the end, my result is
FAILED!
WTF! I studied so hard and still i got a fail?!
Studied one month before the test, taken 3 e-trail and 6 papers.
Damn!
First person to know my result was my brother, Winston.
Second person was my god sis, Cass.
I wanted to let someone know about my result and she is the person who is important to me but her prepaid was low and i cant contact her.

After the test, i re-registered the BTT. Nxt test will be on first week of the nxt month, Friday. Hopefully, that day will be a luky day for me to pass.
Sad ar~

Nxt i went to find Winston at Tampines Mall. Angeline was with him and we went for dinner after their play time at arcade.
They had their subway and i had my own dinner at KPT.
I dont like subway, specially their sauce. Like shit...

I guess that all for updated. Have to attend school tml early in the morning.

2009-04-30T10:58:00.001-07:00

Saying that I'm childish. i accepted it and i already used to it.

Ppl just wont understand why and wat is my action for.

Basically, my aim is just to let the ppl around me to be more happier, doing something that will make ppl feels weird and lame. In the end, hopefully there will be smile on their face.

Saying a friend 'ghost', might sounded irritating enough to her but the truth is, i just wanna play with her, hopefully it will brighten her day.

Recently, bad situation happened between me and some of my HPF. Actually, we have different part to blame, i supposed.

Firstly, i know is my fault tat i made jie late for her work and shouldn't told my friend to sit with us while we are having meeting but after all is school property, she has the right to sit and somermore i asked with a 'please'.

For the number '6' on the shirt, Ronald and Ani had a play play 'bet'. Whoever wins will get the number. I know tat isn't serious and still Ronald had the choice of changing or not. Well.. i just for the 'fun', using the pencil to change. Of cus, i know Ronald has the right but i am not in serious of changing the number. right?

For the meeting, I don think there is a need to call every BODs to attend the meeting, just for the discussion about the T-Shirt. Basically, i am ok with the shirt no matter wat kind of material or blah blah blah... Show attitude to me?! -.- Since u all doesn't count me as a part of BODs, i am ok with it and i am serious with it. Furthermore, i was waited in the canteen from 11.15am to 12pm just for the meeting. Waited for so long, yet i nv begging for anything! Some more i treated u all ice berg. I know some of u don want but at least accept the appreciation? And once i treated, i dont demand or want anything in return. Show some face la, i also show some face to my friend by buying his ice berg.

Next, everything tat needs to solve or before getting things right, pls check for the correct information before judging. i know i was late for meeting jie, just said 'hiie and bye' to her and let her went back alone under the rain. The problem was that she doesnt want me to send her back to work. Another thing was that i tot Paulina wanna go too, so waited for her again and again just to go tgt to meet jie. Jie can't stay with us and doesnt want to eat with us. Wat can i do? At the end, you scolded me that i caused jie been scolded? Pls la... it was her working-mate caused her to get scolded ok? NOT ME!

Finally, I know the T-Shirt design was done by Paulina's friend. All of you agreed to the design but i am still a part of BOD, i got the right to comment the shirt ok? I nv demand that you guys have to follow my suggestion. Is just whether u all have to accept or reject. I don demand u guys to accept my suggestion and i am ok if u all reject my suggestion. But seriously, tat kind of design is '-.-...' , wat will other ppl think about Interact Club when they see the design at the back of the shirt? I will always tell you all and include Roy, always listen to other ppl suggestion, reject or accept will be another story. Hais...

I just don know wat to say... Hopefully, all of us will be better. Hopefully, at least there is jie to understand and accompany me even there is no others in HPF can really understand my action and intention.

AND I ALWAYS THINK TWICE BEFORE I ACTED. PLS UNDERSTAND MY INTENTION!

2009-04-13T08:43:00.000-07:00

Today, school reopens again... Same old thing, going to school alone.
But tis sem, we will be having most of our lessons at the BIT lab.
We had Dota, gaming at the lab as our relief teacher did nth in the class but just briefly introduced us the modules that we are about to learn.
School ends at 5pm and headed down to Tampines to meet her again.
Pass her something which she might need it in use.
I think nxt time i will be as usual... Going to school and cming back frm school all alone.
Used to go Tampines and fetched her or even accompanied her before going back home..
Hais... everything changed...

2009-04-12T03:53:00.000-07:00

Friday, i went to prawn-ing with Winston and Angeline
Winston caught 2 prawn while Angeline and i caught NONE! Damn!
We prawning frm 5pm to 7pm, at Pasir ris town park.
After the prawning, we decided to punggol park for rex birthday BBQ.
He invited us, at first i met up with m.x at the punggol bus stop and we went there ourselves first.
Nigel was there already along with jian bing and the others.
Winston came at about 10 plus and just for while, we have to go blk 401 to have our dinner.
After dinner, its time to send Angeline to the bus interchange for her to go home.
Winston went to meet his ex and i went home after tat.

我知道是我的错，但我真的好想在你身边。
但心你，怕你别的男生骗.
这两首送给你。

爱如潮水

不问你为何流眼泪
不在乎你心里还有谁
请让我给你安慰
不论结局是喜是悲
走过千山万水
在我心里你永远是那么美
既然爱了就不后悔
既然爱了就无怨无悔

再多的苦我也愿意背
我的爱如潮水将我向你推
紧紧跟随
爱如潮水她将你我包围
我再也不愿见你在深夜里买醉
不愿别的男人见识你的妩媚
你该知道这样会让我心碎

答应我你从此不在深夜里徘徊
不要轻易尝试放纵的滋味
你可知道这样会让我心碎

沿海公路的出口

用一根火柴烧一场蜃楼
借这场大雨让自己逃走
荒茫公路无人的漂泊
寂寞海啸把我卷走

用一段感情换一个朋友
每一句再见割一道伤口
躲在万劫不复的街头
微笑参透覆水难收

倘若说放一次手
就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔

我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋

我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不出回忆却学不会放手
怎么走

沿海公路的出口

倘若说放一次手
就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔

我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋

我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不出回忆却学不会放手
怎么走

我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋合

我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不出回忆却学不会放手
怎么走

2009-04-09T12:02:00.000-07:00

Firstly!
Happy Birthday to my brother, Winston! 09/04/09
兄弟，生日快乐！十九岁了哦！^^

Yesterday, i went for a hair cut.
Turned out to be more retarded than before.
Went to look for my ex and brought her back to my home for using my laptop.
All she wants are just working on her project.
After she done with her project, its time for some serious things.
Punishment...
I willing to deserve those punishment from her for hurting her in the past.
I don mind those punishment, as long as she is much happier and vented out her angrier.

放不了手是因为我还爱你，我还是很担心你。
我不在意被你打骂，只要你心里的恨可以出来，让你舒服多的话。
再打几百次，我也无所谓。
我所做的，都是一个原因。也就是，我太爱你了！

That afternoon when we were on the bus 136 to reach my home.
Few Secondary school boys were sitting on the back seats of us.
I heard them talking about my ex...
When we about to alight, one of the boys said to his friend:"I thought you wanna ask for her number?"
I was wondering, could it be my ex that they are pointing at?
When the bus stopped, that boy said:" Hey the gal who is wearing the black shirt, my friend said you very chio, he wanna ask for ur number."
Yes, my ex was wearing a black shirt and a jeans.
Beside her, there were no other gals around me who are wearing black shirt.
In the bus, most of the gals are CHIJ. Which their uniforms are blue and white.
Who else are they pointing at?
I was so mad at that moment with those boys.
Once i alighted, i was staring at them and maybe show tis "_l_" .
Definitely, i am very worried for her. Don wan her to get hurt.
Don't wan her to be cheated by other guys as she always hang out with online friends and mostly, she knows them from online like friendster and facebook.
Hais.. she definitely wont understand how much i love, care and worry for her.

Today, celebrated Winston's birthday.
Go Top One at bugis for KTV
We sang from 12pm-6pm
We almost lost our voices too. =D
Around 7 plus, we met Le Han at the White Tangerine Cafe at Kovan
We had our dinner and MONOPOLY (Present i bought for Winston) ^^
Hope he likes it...
Waited for Wei Ting to arrive and we started to blow and cut cake.
Yeah!
After the celebration, Wei Ting and Le Han had to leave first.
J.j joined us at a later time and we headed for a pool game.
Its been few months that i ever play pool.
As a result, my skill had de-proved.

Well.. That's all for now.. So exhausted... Zzzz...

2009-04-07T09:16:00.000-07:00

我很爱你，难道错了吗？
我一直都很爱你，想照顾你，在你身边。
难道错了吗？
我一直都尊敬你，相信你的。
难不成，原谅与忘记有那么难吗？
我的一举一动，我相信你也知道的。
全部都是一个原因。

就是我爱你！
我知道你和我的过去有痛苦
但当我们在一起回后，我真的变了。
有一间是不会变，就是我对你的感觉
我爱你，不管你是怎么样的人。
一直都爱你。
我还在等你! 希望你会回来。

2009-04-05T11:41:00.000-07:00

今天是四月五日，如果我们还在一起的话，今天应该是我们在一起的六个月吧。
不知不觉，多过几天，我们应该是认识对方有八个月了。
依然，还在想着你和我们的过去。
记得我每次唱给你的那些歌吗？童话，爱转角，我可以
现在，我想给你多一首歌，非你莫属。

童话

忘了有多久
再没听到你
对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久
我开始慌了
是不是我又做错什么

你哭着对我说
童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂
从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手
变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

你哭着对我说
童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂
从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手
变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
我要变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手
变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
我会变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手
变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
哦...
一起写我们的
结局

爱转角

我伪装着
不露痕迹的想在你身边
静静的陪着看着天边
骑着单车
往前行进着
某个路口爱在等着
你往前走
不回头看了记忆的笑脸
缓缓的敲着我的琴键
我不舍得
让你孤单单的
我爱你的心牵挂着
一直想跟你说幸福不再溜走
在下一个路口幸福哭着说
心不再拚命躲不去害怕结果
下个路口你会看见爱
有美丽笑容
爱转角遇见了谁是否不让你流泪
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪不让你掉眼泪
现在永远
你就是我就是我的美
心不再拚命躲不去害怕结果
假设有个以后你会怎么说
一直想跟你说幸福不再溜走
下个路口你会看见爱
有美丽笑容
爱转角遇见了谁是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪不让你掉眼泪
现在永远
你就是我
就是我的美
爱转角遇见了谁
是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁是否不让你流泪
将寂寞孤单作废让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪不让你掉眼泪
现在永远
你就是我就是我的美

我可以

寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪有种距离

你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听

雨下的好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福它真的不容易
在你的背景有我爱你

我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽是因为你

寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪有种距离

你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听

雨下的好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福它真的不容易
在你的背景有我爱你

我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽是因为你

我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽是因为你

非你莫属

懂得让我微笑的人
再没有谁比你有天份
轻易闯进我的心门
明天的美梦你完成
整个宇宙
浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球
全都绕着你走
爱我非你莫属
我只愿守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我非你莫属
也许会笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦
☆o0o0o0o0o0o☆
爱我非你莫属
我只愿守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我非你莫属
也许会笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦
那人是你所以
不怕苦...
0o0不怕苦☆

2009-04-03T09:51:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, went down to Bukit Panjang, Jie's house.
Having a small birthday celebration for Shi Hui's 20th birthday.
Firstly, met jie at Bukit Panjang Plaza to collect the birthday cake and rent two horror movies.
Heading back to her house and carry out the plan.
Paulina, mama and Ah Boon Along withShi Hui was at jie house
so I asked Ah Boon to bring Shi Hui into jie's room.

After eileen and hongkian arrived, Ah Boon and me bring Shi Hui down to the Garden for a chat but actually preparing for the celebration.
Paulina and the rest will be joining us ltr.. Meanwhile preparing the cake and presents.
After awhile ltr, i met with the rest and carried out the celebration.
Hopefully, Shi Hui will like the celebration that we planned for her.
After the celebration, we headed back to Jie's house for K..
Soon, Shi Hui and Ah Boon left. Shi Hui have to go for nite class.
Follow by Paulina who have to go back home early.

About evening time, we had two horror movies which i already watched before with my ex.
Just watched for fun, meanwhile can scared Jie, Eileen and Hongkian. haha...
After the first show cum another half of second show, my lao pa came to fetch me back.
Actually he was happened to passby Bukit Panjang, tats why he can fetched me back Punggol.
I asked him to drop me at the punggol KPT, cus i was meeting winston and m.x for awhile.

Well, tats all... Recently we are addicted to a online game call... CABAL!! XD
Update soon..

2009-04-01T09:09:00.000-07:00

Two days ago~
I met with my ex.
Pass her a blue sony earphone tat i bought for her.
So happy to see her again but unfortuately i am no longer as her bf to meet her again.
Used to have time with each other... Sweet talk.. Enjoyed every moment tgt...
So missed~
She passed back my creative ear-set and planned to lent me the Microsoft office.
but i rejected, even though my brother needs it for his laptop.
I know she wants to concern about my brother but i don wan her to worry thats why i rejected.
Back to the usual drink store that both of us always went there for some chat,
Confessed to her that i still missed her as always...
She always on my mind...
In the evening, i had dinner with lehan, z.y, rui and m.x.
Discussed with them about the upcming chalet.
Decided to make it at 11th may and end at 13th may(first day of school)
Maybe deciding to skip the first day of school cus usually nth will happen on first day of school. Just collecting textbook onli.
After that ton with winston, m.x and angelina (the gal i just known frm winston)
She is R.Poly student, same age as us. good character lor...
Good thing is that she stays at tiong bahru and same secondary school with Paulina.
Furthermore, She is the same choir member as Paulina.
They know each other aso...
This world is so small~
XD

That midnight, we had Monopoly at one of the hougang HDB void deck.
So much fun!
Starting, i got alittle of money =)
Mid of the game, I was so rich =D
End of the game, I am bankurpt and still own alot of money =(
After the game, we decided to go for a short pool game but they are going to close soon.
Head for breakfast at hougang mall,
Too bad... Its still closing...
Slack at the Hougang Hub~
About 5.45am, Angelina went off to take Bus 27 to Changi Airport.
Left m.x, winston and me, went to Blk 401, Winston old house area to have our breakfast.
About 6am, we walked all the way to our Secondary School to take our bus home.
We had our time chatting about secondary life while comparing to the new secondary life tat our junior are having now.
They are much like not much discipline lor.. Some of them still dare to hang their handphone in front of their uniform.. So much different frm us.

Yesterday, i was wif winston. Actually we planned to go Ubi for registering my BTT
Too bad, i woke up late.
We went to city hall and collected his laptop.
Went to meet his god-mama, Sandra at Millenia Walk Harvey Normen.
Started to April Fool ppl, once strike 12am.
First targeted, my god-jie Casssandra.
Prank her about some agruement with Ronald and said that i don have the mood for the outing on the following day.
Success! Yes!
Second targeted, Ronald.
Prank that i start to hate Paulina, unfortuately that is not successful. =(
Third targeted, my ex.
Tricked her that i was coughing and suddenly vomited out blood.
Actually at that time, i didnt know why the timing was so nice that i was really coughing seriously.
Still... Its a most successful trick cus all i needed was just less than 5mins to trick her.
Just now i tricked Eileen,
Told her that i decided to leave Interact Club again due to my GPA which is not wat i expected.
Said i don wish tat CCA affected my result.
She really got into it... tot was really true but in the end, i asked her wat date is today?
She was then realized that she was been tricked all the while by me.
APRIL FOOL! HAAS....

So much fun today, mostly gals who i targeted were been tricked
While guys were much more alerted.
XD

Tis early afternoon, i went down to Udi with Winston and met Sandra there too.
I registered for my BTT (Basic Theory Test)
Registered Theory as School and Riding as Private.
Yeah!
Wish tat she is with me... Hais...
I wish, tat day i get my license and get my car...
She is my first passenger that i drive
Hopefully, I can complete my whole test and get the license by the end of tis year. Yeah!
After registered, We went down to Hougang mall
Having lunch~
After our lunch, went to Winston house and slacked awhile before going to Vivocity.
Met Angelina and Z.Y at Vivocity for Window Shopping
Watch 'Coming Soon' at the GV
I could say this movie is worth to watch if you dare to take the horror
For tis horror movie, i rated for 4/5 stars. Seriously, the horror can frighten you.
I bought two case for my senior birthday as presents.
One big and one small case for her.
Hopefully she likes it.
Went Long John Silver for dinner.
Now i am broke again.. hais...

Update till here now. Signing off...

2009-03-29T10:46:00.000-07:00

Regarding to my health...
Doesnt seems to be improving... Keep coughing and coughing...
Lost my voice. My voice is getting deeper and deeper.
It happened after my broken relationship.
Rmb that time i got into fever, flu and soar throat. but after awhile, i have already recovered just for awhile.
Then here comes my coughing again... ARGH!
It has been few weeks and i still coughing away.

Tml i will meeting my ex, abit exciting yet don know wat to say. hais..
Will update soon.

2009-03-28T08:18:00.000-07:00

Finally~ our dear Winston is back frm HongKong since the previous midnite, 1240am. He called me and updated him about the recently happenings.

Actually there is nth much happening. Just matters between me and her. Maybe the upcming chalet for our groupies.

He bought alot of things for me frm HongKong.

LV wallet~ Cool man!

Card and money holder? So magical~

Puma Cap~ My wish cm true!

My new fashion show? haha!! XD

My nxt aim is to get

a Newbie black shirt or black tight shirt

a Sneaker

a black Straight-Cut pants or a Cargo pants

Ok de la^^ Set!
Once again... Thx to my brother, Winston! ^^

Just back from jie's house! We had funs, movies, K section and heavy meals!

Too bad, Paulina cant stay with us. She missed out some funs. Still we took some pictures.
Had dinner with my mother and younger brother.

Treated them to dinner~ ^^ So long nv treat my family already.
After dinner, I went to pay my phone bill.

Start to think about those days, i paid for her phone prepaid card and paid for her internet bill.

Now, i cant even do anything for her. Hais....

我答应她，我会好好的爱她，照顾她。

我还说我会帮她父亲减轻负担，也就是好好的照顾她。

我也对她说，我不会让她再过她以前的生活。不让她吃苦。要让她过着舒舒服服的生活。

但我们分手，成了陌生人，我再也不能为她做些什么了。

刚刚我在想，她的干爹是否有帮她还电话费。好担心...

分手快乐

我无法帮你预言　委曲求全有没有用

可是我多麽不舍　朋友爱的那麽苦痛

爱可以不问对错　至少要喜悦感动

如果他总为别人撑伞

你何苦非为他等在雨中

泡咖啡让你暖手　想挡挡你心口里的风

你却想上街走走　吹吹冷风会清醒的多

你说你不怕分手　只有点遗憾难过

情人节就要来了　剩自己一个

其实爱对了人　情人节每天都过

分手快乐　祝你快乐　你可以找到更好的

不想过冬厌倦沉重　就飞去热带的岛屿游泳

分手快乐　请你快乐　挥别错的才能和对的相逢

离开旧爱　像坐慢车　看透彻了心就会是晴朗的

没人能把谁的幸福没收　你发誓你会活的有笑容

你自信时候真的美多了

2009-03-26T08:24:00.000-07:00

Recently hanging out with my god-brother and sisters. Sometimes went to god-sis house while sometimes fun and normal hanging out.
I had my fun and hopefully they had too.
I wonder is she having fun too? Used to spend my holidays with her. Went out for movies, shopping, window shopping or playing arcade tgt.
Is she playing with her friends or by herself? Watching movie with her friends or by herself? Hais... Wish i am the one who accompany her always.
Today i had swimming with m.x in the late afternoon at Sengkang Sports Complex.
I tot maybe we could catch some suntan but too bad... the weather wasnt suitable enough.
We just swam around the outdoor pool and some fun with the slides.
Slack~ around the indoor pool.
About evening time, we went for a bath and headed off to hougang for dinner. I saw some of my secondary friends at hougang plaza KPT and realized that most of them changed.
M.x and i headed home after tat.
Well.... tats all for now.. Blog nxt time.

2009-03-25T09:28:00.000-07:00

不习惯你不理我的每一天，真想知道你最近过得好不好，在做什么。多希望每次我的电话响就是你。不管简讯好，或打给我。我多希望是你。你知道吗？我每次拿着电话时，都想着你，想打给。但我知道你一定不会接的。你找到比我好的幸福了吗?我希望你还没。但如果你找到了，希望你会让我知道。我会祝福你！希望他会对你比我好。我虽然会依依不舍，但看着你的笑容，我也心满意足了。接下来的这首歌送给你，“背叛“

背叛

雨
不停落下来
花怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人
欣赏悲哀
爱
只剩下无奈
我
一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块
就不精采
紧紧相依的心如何
say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快
有一句感慨
还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段还在不在
心

2009-03-23T00:54:00.000-07:00

前天，我真的很担心她。她当时和她的网上朋友一起出去还是男生。其实，每次她和朋友出去，大多数是男性。有一次，我在做工时，她告诉我她会和一些男生去玩。其中一个男生是喜欢她的。她发了一个简讯给我后，就没有再发给我或回复给我。就打电话给我都没有。担心那个男生会对她乱乱来。知道我想太多，但我相信真爱着女友的男友也会担心女友出事吧。我那时好担心也很紧张，就一时的冲动下，放下我的工作，到tampines找她。到那里时，我跑过她可能会去的地方。终于，她打给我了，说她和朋友在娱乐场打电动。我跑回到那，找她!冒着一身汗到她面前，看着她，她也毫无表情。我其实天天都在担心她，想着她。但想了一想，虽然这些都值得，但她不是我谁了。再担心她，她也不管了，也感觉不到。想一想，我应该时候证明给她看，没有她我会过得好好。
我虽然很愿意的放弃她，但我其实很不愿意。她对我来说很好，我也不管她是怎么样的人。只要我爱她，她也爱我好了。我们的缘分被沭走了。风没有了沙，也变成了灰。当初，我选着放弃她，是不想让她担心我。我每次回头其实是担心她，也想多看她几眼。如今落到这样，就让我默默的爱她，为她祈祷吧。
今天，我不知道为什么，每听一次我们的歌时，就会好好想她。心里想着她的样子。好真；很真。仿佛是她就在我身边。拿了工钱后，塔着巴士，回家的路途中也听着歌。好想她，我问问我自己，我要她回来，可能吗？我知道答案也许肯本不可能的。我想对她说，我还是很爱你！请你回来好吗？
你有在看吗？你有想我吗？我很想你。我想念我们的过去。你对我所说的话，我依然还记得！
你知道吗？我依然都不会对你说再见！

2009-03-21T10:30:00.000-07:00

当我们还在一起时，我常常为你做一些傻事。一些你觉得别的男生不会为你做的事。
还记得，第二次去接你放学时，下起大雨，我还是冒着雨跑过雨中到你学校。
那时，背包里还是很重的，有书本啊，还有手提电脑。
到你学校时，我全身都落汤鸡了。
虽然，我们分手了几天。我还是依然担心下雨时，你回不了家。
那时就买了雨伞到你学校给你；接你回家。
还是一样冒着雨到学校。给了你后，确定你没有领到雨。我走在雨中也觉得满足。
今天，不知道为什么。有一种冲动，要找那个王八蛋，摸过你的那个男人，找他来打他一顿。
是他先来找我，对我说一些惹我不爽的话。还那么多管闲事。又说到自己很man哦。我屁！有种，就下来找我。我看他有多man! 自以为年纪大，就觉得大？我屁！比我还不成艘多呢。他只想拍你的马屁，掏你欢喜。而且我们会变成这样也有关于他！
别让我看到他，或听到他，不让我会跟他没完没了。
别在想了。但我想的，还是你。看下一首歌，“默默“。这首歌让我想起你对我的好，也让我想起我对你的好。

默默

这是一个没有答案的问题
我感觉我变了谁让我变了
原本这是一个没有答案的问题
却被你解开了简单的解开了

你走过来带着和别人不同的对白
你甚至不让我知道你对我有多好
慢慢的这份爱悄悄的住下来
深深的在心里没人看的出来
安静的但却一直都在
是你默默的爱

慢慢的这份爱已经变成依赖
浅浅的笑容里却让我充满期待
不用说我就能够明白
你默默的爱

这是一个没有答案的问题
我感觉我变了谁让我变了
原本这是一个没有答案的问题
却被你解开了简单的解开了

你走过来带着和别人不同的对白
你甚至不让我知道你对我有多好
慢慢的这份爱悄悄的住下来
深深的在心里没人看的出来
安静的但却一直都在
是你默默的爱

慢慢的这份爱已经变成依赖
浅浅的笑容里却让我充满期待
不用说我就能够明白
你默默的爱

未来的每一天不管发生什么
能不能交给我呢
我要永远陪着你守护着你直到最后

慢慢的这份爱悄悄的住下来
深深的在心里没人看的出来
安静的但却一直都在
是你默默的爱

慢慢的这份爱已经变成依赖
浅浅的笑容里却
让我充满期待
不用说我就能够明白
你默默的爱

Today, i was totally rot. but about late afternoon, the stupid bloody guy pm me and told me about me and yen siew things. well tis matter is between me and her. why is he so k.p? bloody hell.. get lost la, idiot... go drink ur mummy milk la, pervert and flirter guy. i still havent get my revenge frm him for anyhow touching my ex. argh! still said that he is more mature than me? Phui! still more childish, little kid than me... Throw our guy face sia! Get lost.. bloody hell! Coward sia! Go find my ex and tell her... Eeee... Still use my ex as shield. Wanna jio me one to one, yet go and find my ex.... No boss sia! GO AND CRY FOR MAMA LA! Wat i am doing now, is basically will be good for my ex future. and is none of ur business. Still praising my ex, wanna act good in front of her? hais... disgrace!

Enough talk! Went to find winston before he going to hongkong while i am having lonely life.
Hais.. don know wat to do nxt week while he is at hongkang.. M.x still not back and the rest are busying with their things. Wish she is wif me.. i will surely look for her every single day.. actually during the past, i almost look for her every single day. sian....
Play 1 v 1~ draw!
Play AI~ Owning! haha....
Too bad cant play L4D, different version and my com don know why, cannot play the latest version. sian....

Up till here... tml evening going to fetch my friend who is back frm oversea.

Miss you so~ pls give me a chance and cm back pls....

2009-03-20T09:44:00.000-07:00

昨晚，我仿佛睡不着。怕我睡了，再也看不到她了。
我听也她送我的歌，看着我们的回忆；照片，发给我的简讯，你画给我的画。最要的是看着你的爱。好想念~
Today went to MINDS. Its first time for the January Intake. Surprising see Kwang Sheng there at the MINDS already. Besides jan intake members, along with Cass jie jie, Mama, my classmates who are also in interact club who are also their seniors and my BODs. Setting off to MINDS at about 1.45pm.
Things are not really up to my standard. basically there are much more needed of room of improvement on the members.
Heard some bad comments yet i just pretended that i nv heard anything.
Somethings are just keep it inside and not to hurt other ppl.
Who invited the boy whose name is not in the attendance list? It makes me unable to explain to the person in-charge. So embarrassing... so stun... pls hope tat he wont complain to Mr.Dai.
Its my first organised event at MINDS, even i got organised an event at SARAH. But the feeling and atmosphere is different.
For this event, I have to thank Ronald, Hongkian, Paulina and Eileen for helping to purchasing the items needed. Thanks to YMCA, Cheryl for helping out with us. Aso... Have to thanks fahan and another gal for helping me cleaning up the canteen.
Without them i could knock out and laid on the floor. Basically, i am too worn-out after the event.
After the following day, i am totally no life. Brothers went oversea and i am in singapore. Nigel is currently busy with his stuff and i believe tat rui and j.j will busy aso due to their attachment. Winston will be going h.k and M.x is already at Malaysia. hais.... wish someone will be there to accompany me.. Maybe she? But i guess.. we are stranger and she's left me... is impossible tat she will ask me out.
Guess i ended here.....

2009-03-19T11:20:00.000-07:00

不知道为什么，想哭但哭不出。心好低落。心再也开心不起。
今晚发生了会让我永远开心不起的。
这几天都想隐瞒她我的心事，都不肯跟她说我的真心话。让她以为我一直都在骗她。
其实，我很想大声告诉她。我喜欢她对我所做的事。我很爱她！我很想说谢谢但说不出。
最重要的事，我不想让她担心我。
今天，我不知道为什么，我就是那么激动也那么吃醋。就是有个男的，对她好好。仿佛对我来说，那个男的是在追求她。其实，我想告诉她，我还爱她。太爱她了！
但如今，我搞到变成陌生人。我虽然后悔，但只要她过的开心。我也心满意足了。
不管我们是什么关系，我还是默默的爱她，关心她，为她祈祷。
放心吧！我会永远带着她给过我的爱，好好的过下去。其实，我并没有告诉她，我把她给的爱收起来。收在没有人懂的地方。她的爱永远都是我的依赖。能让我开心的，是她给我的爱。我每晚都会看着它，想着它，我才安心的睡，慢慢的开心起来。
想告诉她，我从来不后悔地爱她。因为她是我人生中最好的女孩。我没有告诉她，我爱的其实不是她的人，而是她给我的爱！我相信她接下来的路一定会比我还要来得好。
最后一句话想对她说的是，我爱你！我太爱你了！不管你在哪方，我都会默默的爱你！对不起！是我害了你！
人到了失去后，才会珍惜。这句话说得好。我中了！
这首歌，送给你的。

安静
只剩下钢琴陪我弹了一天
睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开
你要我说多难堪
我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份
包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多
我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开
我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份
安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你
是因为我太爱你
只剩下钢琴陪我弹了一天
睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开
你要我说多难堪
我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份
包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多
我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开
我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份
安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你
是因为我太爱你
你要我说多难堪
我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份
包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多
我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开
我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份
安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你
是因为我太爱你！

永别了宝贝！保重！我永远爱你！

2009-03-17T09:44:00.000-07:00

Today, i had K session with my god mama, cass jie jie and some of my BODs. So much laughter and quite 'high'. Just that someone was not enjoying herself.
After the K session, we went home. Called winston, m.x and nigel whether they wanna have dinner outside tgt. In the end, i managed to call winston with his gf along for dinner.
I was made a stupid decision. I actually know the answer but just don know why a sudden rush will made me msg and called her to tell her. but of cus in the end, the answer came out was wat i expected. I don blame her but just blaming myself. 制作多情。I will wish her all the best and i believe that one day, that guy who she is having in her mind will reach her one day.
Anyway i am used to lonely life. without any gals love, well.. i am just an ugly guy.. with a poor character. I bet every gal has the same tot towards me. Nobody will speak about my name ever... Just living in a lonely life..

2009-03-15T11:39:00.000-07:00

今晚，我到了奶奶家时。我发现到奶奶变得好憔悴，脸好白哦。其实，每次我去看望她时，一定会发现她的身体一次比一次的差。每次我看到她时，只希望不是我最后一次看她的一面。今天，奶奶问我，你的女朋友没来吗？我知道我应该告诉她怔怔的答案。也就是我和我的前女友已经分手了。但我回答说，我们都在忙所以她没来。我知道是很大的谎言，但从奶奶的眼神，我看得出她喜欢我的前女友，对她很有深刻的影响。再说，她是我第一个女友去见我奶奶，奶奶也觉得她的人好好。但奶奶不可能会再见她了吧。看奶奶的生体一次比一次差。我希望奶奶会好。不希望奶奶离开我，因为在孙女当中，她最疼我。而且我是长孙。每次我去看望她时，她都一定会很开心的迎接我来。从小，我要什么，她很愿意的买给我，也不埋怨些什么。奶奶在我人生中也很重要。如今看到她今天的这样，我不知道要哭好，还是默默的祈祷。奶奶，要好好过，不要离开我。

2009-03-15T11:11:00.000-07:00

Recently...
Working...working.. working...
Finally today is the sunday and i am knock out. So tired~
Yawh~
Last night, i went to mama house. Actually we should have a BBQ session but they started early without as i have to work. Heard that the plan wasnt going well, due to rainy day plus i was reached about 9 plus plus.. so, is so late ba..
When i was working, bad things have happened. I wish is not like tis. Perhaps this way, she will live better.. i guess... hopefully it will be better for her... Well... no matter wat, my mind is set and it wont be change.
When i reached mama house, most of them were at jie jie's room and only left weichun and mama in the living room. i actually planned to give them surprised but it doesnt seems to be working. Sad... After things were done, i sat at the kitchen along with mama, jie jie and my family enjoyed my dinner while chatting with them. Next, we went to jie jie's room to have some discussion and after that a video, but after the first disc, i feel like going orh orh. Weichun is in the room and i also cant fall aslp due to my mind thinking of something.
Then, both of us have a man chat. Suddenly, jie jie, ronald and paulina came in and so both of us decided to move to living room to continue our man chat. In this chat, we talk about past, present and our future plan... realised that both of us have the same current situation just that his pain is more worst than mine. In the end, we made the same decision. Our secrets are only known to each other only and wont be reveal to other ppl.
(I know we are friends onli, perhaps we arent meant to be together.) Tis msg is to someone.
After our man talk, i went back in to jie jie's room for the april orientation discussion. Afterwards, i was forced to slp as i having work the next day which is today.
The nxt morning, i had breakfast with my family and they went for bowling while i went to meet my aunt at Chua Chu Kang. My uncle fetched me to Potong Pasir while they went to my granny house.
On the way, I was sitting at the back of the lorry. while the lorry moves, the wind was blowing and furthermore, we traveled down the highway. Enjoying the wind while listening to the musics from my Iphone. I kinda like this feeling... So enjoying and cooling... Almost reaching the potong pasir, the sky started to fall cats and dogs. Lucky my uncle drived fast enough to let me avoid the rain. After i alighted at the mrt station, i asked my aunt to put my belongings at granny house and straight away went for work.
After work, i went to my granny's house to collect my belongings: thats another story and will continue at the next entry.....

P.s. When a guy meet a gal that he fall for, yet that gal wont fall for him. Its time for the guy to avoid and disappear to let the situation back to normal. Perhaps we are always friends and doesnt meant to be tgt..

2009-03-10T09:12:00.000-07:00

Went to swimming with nigel and m.x at the Sengkang swimming complex. We were having fun with those slides, swimming and enjoying the Jacuzzi. Its been a long time, we ever had fun while swimming. After this swimming, i felt more better. Its like those troubles and worries are gone forever frm me. Feel cooling now~ A deep breathe was taken*
We had a short swim at outdoor pool.. quite warm.. just nice. We swam here and there about a short period. Then we head for the slides, had so much fun. Started off, we tried the tallest slides, only got two opens but there were three of us and so m.x and i went off first. When i was going down, the slide was abit dark as it was covered slide and water that is in the slide was rushing very fast. When i reached the pool, m.x was with me and followed by our handsome guy, nigel. When he reached the pool, the pool was splashed and quite a large wave was created and 'poos...' Here i goes wet and is damn heavy wet.
Next the middle slides, it was divided into five slides. Heard from m.x that you can do wat style then when you reached the pool, you can flood on the water until very far then start to drop into the water(dont really know how to say). We tried alot of times, yet we still cant get the techni. 'Ouch!' i think my butt damn hurted after trying so much time.
As the sun starts to fall, i started to feel freezinggg... Eeeeeeiiiiii.. teeth fight* We went to the indoor pool, the water in there are much colder than the outdoor one. I was like shrieking.. Hugging myself as tight as possible.
Lastly, we went for the Jacuzzi. So relax~ The jet is pumping the water and hitting my back.. Oh.. so long nv had this massage.. nice~ We also had our time at the child pool where there is also a huge water falling and when the water hits my back, is also feels like massaging.. So nice~
About 7 plus plus, we headed for a bath and decided to have dinner at hougang. During dinner, Winston came to meet us. Actually he was resting at j.j house, as he fall sick and just taken medical at j.j house. After my dinner, I decided to msg to Mr. Dai for taking back my words after thinking though...
SORRY TO ALL BODs AND MR Dai...
SORRY FOR ALL THE TROUBLE THAT I CAUSED
ONCE AGAIN, I AM SORRY!

2009-03-10T01:00:00.000-07:00

Now that the exams are finally over, i can sit down and think though. Thinking twice and many times, i believe that i am just bringing more and more trouble, plus now i don have the strength and self-motivation. No more supportive.
I decided to demote my position and back to member. I know is a selfish and irresponible act. i am srry. I have given two more days to think through again. but should I?
i lost her and everything. All i got now is my brothers... friends? perhaps those who are not in ITE? I appreciate to those who tried to comfort me and bring me up again but i really don find any motivation on myself anymore.
Another decision is that whether or not she is cming back to me, doesnt matter anymore. I will still live on. Yet still hiding at a side. Just cramp myself in a corner and continue my life. i know now we are going to live in a different world.
I don have any right to face them. I will just leave them tgt. Anyway i shouldnt be one of them. I am weak!

2009-03-09T05:11:00.000-07:00

First paper ended today, while i still don have any confident on the first paper. Can you believe that i actually drank a total of 2 cans redbull just for this paper? One was drank early in the morning 6am after waking up just for revision, the other one was right before the exam started in school. After drinking, i don feel tired at all. (usually, i don need those, cus there was used to be her having her support for me and i can felt that feeling. Now that i am alone, i have stand alone in my own way.)
After the paper, i met with eileen, ronald and joyce for revision at Tiong Bahru. However, they were rather tired and don have the mood to study. There are reasons why i suddenly turned mood swing in the afternoon. Basically, one was of cus about her while the other reason was another reason that cant be said. Everybody went home about 3pm and now i am right here blogging while K-ing another module which going to be tested tml.
Please enjoy these following songs, as they are meaningful and they are bestly describle my feeling too.
I am srry to those who i caused trouble to, but its time for me to set a decision.

2009-03-08T00:36:00.000-08:00

Busy K-ing notes for exams. Not that i wan to forget about her. Just wanna let her feeling happy without worrying about me. Well, she wont understand why i am doing these. Putting down her, is my only choice to make her happier as wat she said. I granted her wish, hope she will be much happier. Well, hopefully i can get over tis after exams. As wat i promised, i wont get in love with other gals unless after the time comes in a long long way. Anyway, no other gals will fall for such a guy like me. Foolish, failure, stubborn? Which gal will?
Recently, there are guys treating her very nice. Perhaps they can take care of her, much better than me. Speaking the truth, I still have feelings for her. That means i still love her.

2009-03-03T23:23:00.000-08:00

Everything has collapsed today, the things we have builded tgt. Is gone now. I am not going to pester her aso, just want her to live happier without me. Since she wants to get release and dont want me to bother about her business. I will grant her wish as long as she is happy. I will still secretly pray for her, wish that she will be happier with another guy who she loved. Prehaps, guys like Xian, character like winston. That guy she going to love will surely be better than me. More caring, understandable, of cus cherish her more than me. I am just a lousy guy... Foolish.. Stubborn... Trash... Idiot....

I believe she is much happier now. Dont have to worry about me.

No more support, no more comfort and no more love from her. I am just fall and never get up again. Pestling her will only make her more unhappy, i would rather stay and let her move on her life. At least, i can see her back while she is moving on happily. Thanks for everything that she gave me, i hope that time will go back and let me cherish her more than ever but i guess it wont happen. So i will just let go everything and let it fall too.

Another thing, i am srry to all those put confident and thinks that i have the potential. Srry to BODs. but i decided to go back as a member in the club. Soon, someone will take over my position.

I still love her in my heart. She is the only one who live in my heart. No one can replace. Cus there is no one love me more than she did. No other gal can truly appreciate me. She wont mind about my looks, i am ugly. She wont mind about my character in fact she initially like my character. Other gals will definitely mind about my character, childish?! Perhaps?! Srry to her.

I AM SORRY, BAOBEI. LIM YEN SIEW.
I AM SORRY, BODs.

This video of the following, is specially made for her.

I still and always love you!

goodbye! my love!

2009-03-03T09:22:00.000-08:00

Simply broke down~ Lost my way. I don wan any honor, high-position and respect anymore. Once i lost something important in my life, i rather drop everything that i have and start all over again. Srry to those put high expectation on me but i going bring down and betray my work.

Just completely lost...

Today studied with my friends.. had a great day. Rushed through alot of units and written many notes in my foolscape. Yet my mind is full of her images. Missed~ Tot of old days, where we studied tgt. Teaching her some basic design while she accompanied me study. Now is different. Studying with friends... She truely the best gal but i didnt cherish.
About evening, Cassandra, her mum and Wei Chun came and had dinner with us. After dinner, she suddenly gave me 10bucks as she saw my wallet left 4 bucks and tot i don have enough money for allowance. I kept pushing back to her but she insisted said that if you still treated me as ur god mum, better keep it. All i could say is just thx? Hais.. lousy guy.. She also treated us 4 donuts each... She is really a good god mum... Good until no words to say..

Till here... tml going to run through another day..

2009-03-02T04:31:00.000-08:00

Recently, i felt so emotionless on myself. Cant feel any feeling around me. Basically, when i am happy smiling away, yet i don feel tat i am happy at all. When i am angry or unhappy, i don feel that i am unhappy at all. Just putting on the faces that i suppose to put on. Wats going on with my feeling? I starting to feel empty. Maybe all i can feel is just wat she gave me before. My feeling is simply stuck in the past. Wat i can feel and touch are just past experience feeling.
I decided to drop wat i have now. The honor, the positioning, the Self-character. Perhaps one day, i will hide in a sercet corner and unable to contact from others.Doing some personnel things. Just don like the feeling without been loved by her. Maybe one day, things can be resolved by the way i want. But i guess, it wont happened.

2009-03-01T06:52:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, went to Cassandra house for celebrating her birthday. She invited her friends, us and two of our ITE teachers. One of her cousin, baby boy, so cute. Carried him when he starts to like me. haha... Hope Cassandra enjoyed her birthday alot, Happy birthday Cassandra! After the party, it was raining outside and i couldnt go home. Most of my friends were staying overnight at Cassandra's house. So i decided to stay over too. Meanwhile, we had our stories and ghost stories. Until morning 5 plus, we headed for a little rest. About noon, we went for lunch at jurong point. Thanks to Cassandra's mum alot. We did enjoy and had a wonderful day.
Its been a week after the break up. I still thinking of her, waiting for her. When is she cming back? i hate tis lonely feeling. Used to enjoy the bless and fortunate frm our relationship. Missed her comfort and support that she gave me. Nv gonna get it back? Sign....
Tats all i am going to tell... Waiting for my friends to send me those pictures that taken.

2009-02-26T05:01:00.000-08:00

Wat is life? Can anybody tell me? i find it so meaningless. Why am i born in this world? Studying while growing up? After growing up, working for the government? Fighting hard just for money? OR, am i suppose to enjoy and having fun instead? Don mean to have a broken relationship. Basically, i am just a waste guy. Leaving aside and waiting to rot. No one can give me the correct answer. So, wat for am i born? I don wish to born. Can i have the power to end my life? hais....

2009-02-25T07:50:00.000-08:00

Memories are flashing on my mind every now and then. My blog song is totally describing my feeling now. Thx to those who trying to pushing me and encouraging me but still i rather stay on and wait for her. Cus the memories are just too beautiful for me. I would stay on with the memories before they faded away. i myself of cus know that i am not a good guy, perhaps the worst guy in the world. Just wish that she will find a better guy, of cus.. having her happiness. Don wish that she is living in rainy world like me. Hope that someone will treat her nicely, give her happiness. As long as she is happy, looking at her back and slowly disappear frm my sight. i will be glad.
Today blood donation, unfortuately i am not passed due to fever that happened last few days. The doctor encouraged me that i should wait after 21 days ltr then can donate my blood. Frm 0830hrs to 3 plus, i was working on my duty with my BODs. Very successful yet tiring. Nxt, brother winston called up and told me to meet him at lavender. But when i reached Lavender, he just stepped out of his house. Yet i am so worn out. I rather went back home. Went through the heavy rain, my mind flashes alot. Decided rather giving her freedom which at least she is happy enough to find her nxt happiness and i will be happy as long as she put on her smile. I willing to just see her back and pray for her.

2009-02-20T10:25:00.000-08:00

Flu! Fever! No Mood to eat!
Is the third day without her, feeling so lonely. Don even like this feeling. If we didnt agrued, this situation wont happen between us.
Two presentation held today, the ETP and POM. Wore very black formal to school. The weather was very hot, wearing long sleeve too cum having fever. I could almost get into high fever.
After school, went to SR5 for the january intake cca orientation presentation. Although i am not giving presentation, at least the january intake members get to know me. After the presentation ends, i went to MINDS with hong kian and Hayati along with the april intake 2008 members. Went there, we had a small talk. After that, we started our activity with the mental disabled ppl. Quite enjoyable, gained more experience.
I wish i could be like them, mental disabled person, so tat i can enjoy carefree life wherelse suffering from physical pain. At least, there is always someone to take care of me and my mind has no worries.
Anyway, tis broken relationship started from me, if i nv agrue with her, she wont mention break up. If onli i could obey her, get home early and have a good rest. Given her enough freedom. if i could keep my promise, we wont end up broken up. Wish i could go back to past and cherish her more. Wish she could put down all these and start again. I willing to wait for her and thats promised.

2009-02-17T00:23:00.000-08:00

Chinese New Year had already over. Baobei's birthday just passed. Valentine day just celebrated. A new broke up just happened. Feeling turns empty, don even know wat to do. Feeling so tired, no more strength.
Sold away my psp just to get the money for her birthday and the valentine day. Planned nicely to celebrate everything with her but in the end, wat i got is a waste. Why should i done all tis? I love her! She is my first gal who i loved, celebrated valentine with me and celebrated her birthday too. i nv done these before. Now i could ask myself, did i make the right choice back when i making the choice between two gals. hais...

2009-01-30T07:30:00.000-08:00

Enjoying the Lunar New Year, but busying planning and thinking about the recently happening. Too tiring! Of cus, is not as tiring as the rest of my brothers. They already start preparing their final exams and their projects.
First day of the new year, my family and i went down to two places to 拜年. Sembwang and Potong Pasir. Met with my 阿姨 and my cousin sis and off to my mother side those relatives. My grandma is living with my 三舅. After that, we went down to my father side. Is much more crowded than my mother side. anyway i still prefer going to father side. They are much more warm welcome. i aso prefer talking to them.
Second day, i went to my baobei's house and its my first time going to her house too. I enjoyed the day with her alot. But when i eat dinner with her family, somehow i feel so shy. Don dare to do anything. Her parents are really nice, her father treated me as if like his son, grabbing food for me and while her mum asked me whether i had enough for dinner. =) Around evening time, baobei and i went to winston house, along with my brothers and sisters. We had poker and some delights at his house. Most importantly, we did enjoy ourselves.
I think i will update until here. Mr Stubborn signing off~ Peeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppppp~~

2009-01-25T10:34:00.000-08:00

The sad things have already over. Let us forget about those unwanted memories and continue our happy life. Lunar New Year is here, lets enjoy tis ox year fully and throw away our past. Tis lunar year eve, i brought Baobei to watch movie as to award her for working so hard.cleaning up her house for her family. We watched 'Inkheart'. Its a very nice show. Some of the parts are funny too. We enjoyed ourselves. After the movie, we went to somewhere near her house to slack and allow me to message for her. As her body has been aching since yesterday after doing her housework=) About 5 plus, i sent her home and went back for my reunion dinner. So nice... Sour and spicy soup with seafood and some of my favourite, yu chi! bao bei! Wow.. yummy~
Went to chinatown just now with winston, lehan, z.y and her bf. Just watched the fireworks and walking around, squeezing through the crowd. Got our legs wet and full of dirt. Yeew! haha...
Well, i think tats about all. Off to bed now, tml have to wake up early and go to my granny house! =D

2009-01-20T08:27:00.000-08:00

First of all, i will like to say srry to my gf that i broke the promise of fetching her frm school.
what exactly happen?
Well, today my lesson ends very early due to the teacher. So my school ends at 11 plus. My eyes were very tired and i had decided to go home to get a rest. i told her everything about wat happen. She aso agreed that i should get a rest. She ask me to search for her ring. Yes i found it but i lied to her cus i wanna give her a surprize. I told her tat i will fetch her ltr after i got up. She told me to rest more and she will reach home safetly after her lesson. Thats how i can get a nap peacefully. I nv know that once i fall asleep, i will overslept. Around 4.30pm, she called me and asked me where am i? i replied in a half-awake mood. Sorry, i still at home. She immdiately hang up the phone. I was totally shocked. First thing that cms to my mind was that, she was surely mad and disappointed at me. For that rest of the day, all she can replied is just few words and said from today onwards, i will have the total freedom. hais.. all can blame is just myself. Why initally i went to bed. If i nv went to bed, nth will happen.

2009-01-19T08:48:00.000-08:00

Sorrow in the past and present is now much beautiful than ever. Let the past flow past us and shall not bring out again. Rmb the days and treat those as a memories. Recently my life has been brighten up by my gf.
16/01/09, baobei and i went to bugis for to buy 2 belts at the 77th Street. I bought a white belt for myself and a golden belt for her. There's alot of shiny diamonds on the golden belt. After tat, we went for our dinner at the food junction. Ordered two korean foods, so spicy yet still can take it. About 7 plus, we met up with one of my baobei's online friends and went to arcade to play KOF. Having trouble with my new contact lens at that moment. Maybe my eyes are getting tired. hais... Lost to her two rounds -.- Argh! When did she turn out so strong? i will play better next time.
18/01/09, baobei came to my house and done facial for me. So long nv had this feeling with her already. Kinda missed~ yet enjoyed her warm thats for me. After facial, we watched alittle of X-Family and i needed to get change for the reunion dinner. This day, i had reunion dinner with my relatives (Mummy side one). Its my first time bringing someone who i loved to have reunion dinner with my relatives. After finished up the foods, i introduced baobei to my uncles and aunts. At that moment, i kinda nervous. Well, thats the end of reunion dinner.

2009-01-13T07:26:00.000-08:00

Many events had passed but i am lazy to write it on blog. I will just write some about those events.

26/12/08, Friday, I organized a BBQ Christmas celebration cum j.j and y.x birthday. We had so much fun, just tat some things wasnt well-planned. Happy birthday to our J.j and Y.x. Finally 18th years old.

2008-12-31T07:01:00.000-08:00

2008-12-27T06:56:00.000-08:00

Finally, back frm Genting. I was having so much fun fun fun with my brother and best friends.

First day of the Genting, we had pizza for dinner, shopping around the plaza. Photo taking at outdoor beautiful Scenery. The gals had their fish spa. Looking at them, laughing due to the itchness. I took some photos for them. We went back to the hotel for some clothes changing. We wore shorts and just plain short sleeve shirt. After we changed, we went for bowling. At first, there are some scores calculation error. We spotted that our lane lights were off which cause the calculation error. After the lights were on, the calculation was right but my score was still way far behind winston. Actually my skill is much worst than him. =p We had movie at the Genting Threater, their service is much special than Singapore. Can you imagine MESSAGE CHAIR in the threater? Wei... Winston, my friend and i took the message chair service while z.y and her bf took the normal seats. Soon after, winston and i went to Starbucks to buy coffees for our own. We went out again and wat do you know. We are outside at a weather temperature about 12 degree. Freezing... Frm there, we took some photos aso before heading back hotel and called it off a day. Before i could actually close my eyes, i looked at my watch and wonder wat is my baobei doing? Sleeping already?
Second day of the Genting, i was the first one to wake up. Why? Cus is my duty to wake the rest up. While i always use the toilet longest among them. Anyway, hot bath in the morning is so shiok! haha.. After all of us are ready, we head out immediately to the theme park. Unfortuately, the theme park is pack with alot of ppl. Every ride we go, we must Q at least more than 30mins. This is the reason why i got into sun burn. We had so much fun. Took some photos too. Near evening time, we went back to hotel and changed to some simple wear. After changed, we went for some dinner, then we go for arching. Next, we went outside the Genting Hotel, winston and i had a dare. We went out of the hotel without our jacket on.
Third day which is the last day of our trip, we had our last min shopping. Finally i bought a pink shirt for my baobei. About 2pm, its time for us to catch our bus. When we were on the way down, my mind flashes her face, i tell myself, Yes! i am back! Finally i can see her again! About late afternoon, we reached the K.L. I bought some malaysia food snacks for her family. About 8 plus, we finally reached Singapore, i immediately gave her a call to tell her i have safetly come back.
Well.. i am lazy to go on... going to offline. Peeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppppp................

2008-12-21T12:24:00.000-08:00

Busied on Christmas parties last three days. So miss her alot. First christmas party (17/12) was at the Denis house at Choa Chu Kang. The party was held at 2pm but due to me myself who have lated for 30 mins plus cause my friends to wait just for me at the station. It was quite fun and meaningful. Anyway do you guys know something? Its Xiao Wei's birthday! Happy Birthday gal! Hope u like the present that i gave you. Srry that we cant celebrate for you, maybe there will be a belated celebration for you. Early in the morning, i was been called up by wen rui, he asked me to follow him to town to buy something. Well, since i am going to Choa Chu Kang and is on the same train line,why not?!
The second party was held at East Coast Park. The party held at 2pm aso. Actually i was told to go Choa Chu Kang to help Cassandra to move the things needed for the party but i rejected as i lived much further away. So i went directly to the park at 2pm but yet i was still late for the party. i arrived 30 mins after the party started. We had fun, joy, bbq and cycling. We took some group photos and gift presentation photos but till now i haven received any of them. Anyway i have to get frm Shi Hui.
Final party was held at Sarah Elder house, mainly for the elderly. Who is the in-charge of the event? TAY CHUN AIK! Opps... i was so rush at the event, still there are some problems. Timing not well arranged. Games were not really well-planned. Anyone can guess whose birthday was on that day? Eileen Cheong! I planned a birthday surprised for her. Get a birthday cake during that day. So birthday gal, pls don say that i am always the late comer. There is always a reason behind every action.
For now, i am going to Genting. The one who i always dont bear to leave her behind is my Baobei, Yen Siew! I gave her some money to let her spend when i am not around. Hope she will eat more, drink more, rest early and most importantly, miss me pls. Cause i will miss her dearly. Here, i wan to thank her for accompany me the whole of yesterday. She gave me the PRECIOUS MOMENTS that she can. I really love it. AND NO DOUBT, I LOVE HER MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE!!. I wish to bring her along but her parents..... hais... I promised, once i return back to Singapore, I will msg her immediately. GTG.
Mr.Stubborn Signing off.. Peeeeeeeeeeepppppppppppppppppp.................

2008-12-16T10:27:00.000-08:00

Today i met with my baobei at 2.15pm at the 11 storey of her house. I was total surprised and shocked by how she dressed. She was very gorgeous that she wore today.

We went to arcade at the tampiness mall and century square. We went to play the Tekken 6 and the King of Fighter. Soon ltr, winston came to join us at about 4 plus plus.

Afterwards, we went to watch a movie, Twlight at Century Square Shaw theater. It a vampire show yet very romantic. About end of the show, winston had a problem which cause me into embarrassment. Guess wat. His slipper was broken. Of cus i wont wan to see my brother in trouble. I lent him my slipper, although is small, at least he can get a good-condition slipper in a short time. I had a hard time walking with his slipper, so baobei and i just stopped at a place right outside the threater waiting for him to return back.

Soon he return with a new slipperwe went to eat "Pie Kia" with bubble tea sitting outside near Old Chang Kee.We were enjoying our food and chatting together. After that, baobei and i went to have our end of the day "honeymoon" and sent her home immdiately.

I guess thats all for today. Tml i am having a christmas party, organized by my senior. Mr stubborn signing off. Peeeeeeeeeeeppppppppp........

2008-12-15T09:35:00.000-08:00

Finally done my shopping for those Christmas presents. This year, i am abit budgeted. I realised that this year Christmas, i spent much lesser than the previous year. Plus, i myself knew that the sales i done for this year is much lesser than last year. Due to recession or my laziness?! Perhaps so...
Now that my presents are bought, i have to worry about returning winston brother's money. He paid for us the tickets first and i haven return him yet. I going to get my pay tml. hopefully i can return him and pay my singtel bill. Next thing tat i wan to worry is about new year clothes. i have to worry about whether i can afford those clothes that i wan to buy with the clothes of my baobei wan.
You must be wondering why my gf don buy herself. Is a long story about her family matter, u wont understand unless you went through.
Well, thats all. Mr.Stubborn is offline.. Peeeppppppppp.....

2008-12-11T02:23:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, i finally finished my test. I tried my best and completed with-in 1/2hour. actual paper duration is 1 hr.
After the paper, I went to meet with my baobei and buy those facial things which i don know any of it. She went to my house to do facial for me. I washed my face by using neutrogena deep clean mask.After that we both apply facial mask on our face, laying on bed. When our facial mask gets dry, my mummy scrubbed out the dirt on our face and apply skin toner to cover our pores. Anyway tis is my first time doing facial, felt so weird that a guy doing facial but still i felt so sweet, doing facial with someone i loved. Finally everything was done, both of us including my mummy went to the coffee shop to eat dinner.
Feel so sweet and romantic doing faciel with my baobei. hope to do again during the holidays. ^^
I Love you Baobei~

2008-12-08T09:51:00.000-08:00

First thing, i have to apologize to my baobei for not accompany her all these days. As my final exam holds on this coming wednesday, didnt really have much time. Now tat her period is here, yet i cant do anything but just worrying that she might fall ill and feeling in pain. I wanna stay at her side, ensure that she have enough rest, drink plenty of warm water and take in enough healthy food. Cover her with warm blanket when she needs. Maybe cook for her something. i felt myself so useless and dumb. Well, thats about all. i will update soon after my exams. Praying for my following exam. Mr.Stubborn signing off. Peeeeepppppp!

2008-12-08T09:33:00.000-08:00

2008-12-07T08:00:00.000-08:00

6/5/08, sat, i celebrated our 2nd month tgt with my baobei. She is so sweet and so mysterious. i tot she will wear something usual, however tat day she wore a dress tat really surprised me. I planned everything nicely for our celebration, its abit simple but i think tat if she is happy, i would be even more happier too. We went to vivocity and i brought her to eat sakae sushi and we watched wild girls. actually we were planned to watch Madagascar, somehow the counter guy gave us the other ticket. In the end, he gave us the Wild girls tickets. Well.. at least, she enjoyed herself. No regret. After movie, we went to the arcade at the 4 floor, just for maybe a few rounds of tekken versus with other 2 gals. They are not really strong but one of them are very intelligent on counter attacks. I tell you how she played until i can just clapping my hands for tat gal.
At first, she let u hit her and get to know ur weakness point. like how u hit, when you wont hit and where do u dont hit.after tat, she will counter attack you! damn... ok.. back to my story.
After gaming, i brought her to walk around the vivo park and we settle down at the place where we can see the beautiful sentosa. We had chit chat and took some pictures of ourselves. =) i will upload them soon.
well.. tats about all.. Mr.stubborn offline.. peeepppp.....

2008-12-06T21:09:00.000-08:00

5/12/08-

Tat day was my very big day, guess wat... i have been promoted to the BODs (welfare head). Along wif my friends, Eileen, Hong Kiat, Paulina, Nurhayati, Ann, Ronald, Xin hui and Jennifer. We have been working hard for the Installation. Thank - you for all yours help in the preparation of the installation. It wouldnt be possible without you guys hardwork. Our Installation has turn out very successfully. Congraz, to all upcoming BODs including me, i am looking forward to work with you guys so as to lead our club to serve better and lead them to be better leaders. I aso hoped that we have enjoyed ourselves. Well, i think i am the one who was the only "high" person there. So... excuse me! ^^ These are the uploaded photos that we have taken.

2008-12-02T10:32:00.000-08:00

Weekends working are over again. Not much sales, just sold about 5 cameras including 1 DSLR. Yawh! Recently sales are getting bad to worst.
Project.. Project.. wat else am i working on? Thanks to my brother, Winston. Muhaha.. he helped me alot.
Today after school, straight away went to secondary school to collect my leaving cert. Looked into my secondary school, those old memories flashed back in my mind of wat i done in secondary school. Things and school environment have changed. The school parade is the most memorable,why? There is where i had my first conducted parade. Looking at my leaving cert and testi from my school. I realised that although my result is poor, i had attended different course to build myself and commented tat i am enthus student and will serve well in future.
Recently, people are thinking too much, including me too. Hais... i wish i wont think much like i used to. 做人要规规矩矩,不要胡思乱想!要做个普通的人！

2008-11-25T07:02:00.000-08:00

yawh.. Zzz.. Finally, there wasnt any childish ppl came and disturb us. Think they start to feel that they are just alone or maybe siao! XD FINALLY PEACES! NO ONE IS COMING TO DISTURB ME AND MY BAOBEI! PHEW!
Recently i was tracking down those spammers who spammed my blog before and i found out none of them where they from. Heard from my friends that it is not easy for us, an ordinary people to be able to track those spammers. Only if we have tat special software that will enable us to track their IP address to their real location address.but somehow i know, how the IP add ress works; For example: ***;***;*;**
The first three digit will be about the country
The next three digit will be the ISP, it can be singtel, singnet, starhub or M1
The third digit will be tell us either the hoster is using by broadband or cable line.
The final digit will be the area location.

Normally, the website we using to help us trace the IP address, wont give us the full details. Well.. accusing people will be a big offends, why not get the evidences before accusing.

Revising.. revising.. project and project! When can i have my holiday again!!! Argh!! i wanna go out with my brothers and my sweetie! Oh yes, my baobei bought me a cap from B&G. I know those caps costed about 20 - 30 bucks. OH... I am so touched. Thanks, baobei!

Up coming events will be our 2nd month, watching movies, test, role play and exams! Waa.. BUSY BUSY!! XD Updating soon. There goes Mr.Stubborn again. Beepppp!

2008-11-18T07:39:00.000-08:00

Working on last weekends are much bored than any other weekends. Sales were getting worst and worst. WHAT HAPPEN?! Lucky my gf msg me nearly every hours when i was working. Sunday after work, i met wif my gf for supper but in the end, we went to ba sa ma lam near the tampiness interchange. We brought some food to share with-in us and brought takayaki for her family.

As usual monday, going to school early in the morning but i was late for an hour =.= Yesterday is kind unusual day, something funny happens. After my first lesson, my friends and i went down to the canteen to grab some bites. When we reaches canteen, we heard some people talk loudly. we was like scanning the canteen on whose talking out loud. Then we spot some gals sat on the rounded table. To my observation, most of the students sat in the canteen were looking at them. My friend said siao za bo. i was laughing away and agreed wif him. haha....

For today, i had my presentation done and i went to fetch my gf as usual. Then sent her home first to let her change, cus i don wan her to feel hot and started sweating. I know she will sweat alot if go to hot and warm place. After she changed to a casual clothing, we went to meet up wif winston and his ex. After we met them, we went to Expo for the food fair. We walked and viewed around the fair to see wat kind of food shall we buy. We bought some food and standing at the corner enjoying our food. I bought 250g of ba gua for her family. In return, her family said i am a filial bf. lol.. thx.. i nv been praised for tat good before. I saw my gf's ex bf and her photo. Suddenly, my mind came to a crush. speechless.. Her ex bf looks like my brother, nigel. How cm? i don know wat to do. Looking at the photo found in her wallet. My heart suddenly feel so hurt and this feeling only makes me wanna hold and hug her more and even more tight than ever. its my second time that i am feeling this way. Last time was my ex but i don care anymore. Now is my current gf. Wats wrong wif me? Am i too emotion?

Well.. thats all for now.. Mr.stubborn offline.. Peepppp....

2008-11-14T06:20:00.000-08:00

hello, ladies and gentlemen, i am here to say. I own an Iphone. wow.. actually i own this phone about two weeks ago and now i already start worrying about the cming bill. haha.. maybe ppl will say i am thinking too much.
Second issue is here and i don wish to mention here cus i don wan to dirty my blog. this issue is just about a childish gal who i tot someone used to be my friend in the ITE can pursue a matter in a childish way. My gf is just concern her as an online friend but she turned out to be against my gf. Furthermore, she told her friend about this issue and her friend is so K.P.O tat her friend came to talk back to my gf. of cus, i will protect my gf and agrue back for my gf's right! aiya, why should i agrue wif those childish gals, is letting ppl tot tat i am just as childish as them! WTF!

Childish and immature behavior wont be entertained. Just scam off! Shooo! I will just pretend i dont even know this "friend" of mine. Say what i fall for her before?! Pls la, get the fact right, she is the one who fall on me, i am just entertaining. Her attitude is not even right, immature, still depend on parents for allowance. hais.. thinking mind is still so childish and depend on other ppl to defend for herself. such a coward. don have backbone just say. Does she think that depend on friends will be a good thing?Depends on other ppl will be stronger? Will friends always be there for you? No self-Independence!

Well, tats all for today. Mr. Stubborn is offline! duuu... duuuu..

2008-11-09T06:36:00.000-08:00

Finally wednesday had passed, finally we had our 1st month. Althought we are not free on wednesday, we had our celebration on the friday. Baobei, i really love you. i will hold ur hand and we will always walk down the street tgt.

We had our small celebration last friday, she wore the dress tat i bought for her and we went to the cineleisure for a movie. we planned to watch the coffin and watched the movie at 5 pm. Before we went into the threater, we went to take some neoprints again. After neoprint, we went to arcade to play and play. About 4.50 pm, we went to buy some snacks and went into the threater. After 1 hr 45mins of the movie, i brought her to eat suki sushi at the cineleisure. Due to her father "rules", i have no choices but to send her home before 9pm. On the way to the mrt station, we saw y.x and nigel wor. haha.. don know wat they all doing so late at orchard road. When we reached my gf home, the following activity will be kept as sercet. shh...

well..tats the end of our first month celebration.

This weekends, i was working at takashimaya best denki. Sales there are much worst than i tot. i onli sold 2 cameras during this weekends and the rest of time, i am slacking away. hais. that all for now.

2008-11-03T07:08:00.000-08:00

talking about yesterday, i took a day off to have a celebrate wif my gf for her friend birthday. It was quite a short celebration, we just go for arcade and a lunch. tats called the end of the celebration.
We went for arcade to play the king of fighter and just some fighting game.After tat, we went to V8 cafe to eat for lunch. About 6 plus, my gf and i went to my grandma house for dinner. Tis is my first tym, bringing a gal to my grandma house.
Well. i should update until now. Kinda lazy to go on.

2008-10-29T02:33:00.000-07:00

Ladies and Gentlemen, watch these videos. Enjoy!

Superman - Nese

Superman-MTV

Tats all, folks!

2008-10-28T10:37:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time i ever write a post. Recently, i was busy on my projects and dating with my gf. opps.. haha! Hmm.. lets skip talking about my camp. Is kinda long, all i could say is that the three days two nights camp, i had learnt alot about the different kinds of leadership and made alot of friends.

Spending time with my brothers, sisters and my beautiful galfriend is much like having wonderful days. Pervious sunday, i had great time with my galfriend. Watching movie and taking neoprint. The following pictures are our neoprint:

These days, we went to orchard road and having our romantic tym there. Either watch movie or walking around the town. I also intro my gf to our group, just to hope tat she can get along with my best friends and mainly just to let her know who i mostly hang out with.I think tats about all. Just kinda lazy to put on more details.

I love my princess alot~ ^^ although we do quarrel about some things, i don even mind cus i know through this way, we know our strength and weakness in our relationship. Nv break up even couple quarrel regularly, usually strengthen the relationship is to quarrel and sit down to solve the problem together! =) Tats wat i believe!

2008-10-08T12:33:00.000-07:00

Today, i am going to tell all of you. My summer is here! you know wat i mean. She accepted me and we are in relationship now. She is my bao bei and i am her bf! I put my all my feeling for her.
You must be wondering when we get together?! We started around the day before my camp, which is on sunday. i promise my love for her will nv ends.
Where do i like her the most?
Her hair!
Is she pretty?
Srry, i don think i depends on look ba.
You like her character?
Yes, of cus. Her sense of understanding.
How long have you know her before going on relationship?
About 2 months.
~Ends~
The sad thing is tat.. normally when couples just went on relationship, they will usually go out somewhere on their second day for their HONEYMOON! srry, to my baobei tat i cant accompany you on the second day. I had my camp which just fall on the monday which is our second day. Don worry, I missed you through out the camp. =) Well.. tats all.. kinda tired now. i will update tml about the camp i went through.

2008-10-01T21:55:00.000-07:00

2008-10-01T21:15:00.001-07:00

Last two days, i was having quite fantansic moment.

Tuesday(30/9), lehan organised a group dinner at hougang plaza but before tat we went swimming along wif y.x in the afternoon. Frm 4 - 5.30 in the evening, i think my skin is getting dull as the sun is jus right above us. After swimming, we went to meet wif j.j first, then follow by z.y, rui and x.w. We went to hougang plaza for the zhu zhao?! Total payment is $48! We just ordered a veggie plate, sweet and sour pork, a seafood soup and one more plate which i cant rmb. After the whole dinner, i still cant get myself full. My stomach is maybe just half-full ba.. We decided to go for the soya bean outlet at the kovan near x.w house, heard tat is famous. Which is obvisely famous, as it, even late in hours, the Q there is still long long. haha... We just slacking and eating our soya bean over there. I like cold soya bean, feels very cooling at my throat. Reaching home abt 10 plus, some of us decided to go pub at the nxt day.

Wednesday(last day),i tot i could get my pay but when winston called our boss whether we can tk our pay. My boss said, there will be no giving out pay today,hari raya... so there wont be any giving out. -.- I am almost broke, i nid my pay.At night, lehan, y.x, z.y, nigel, winston and i went to pub for drink and chill.At first, we don know which pub we should go but i rmbed tat one of my ITE friend is working at the nearby pub. So i called her where is she working and we could get a place there. She met us at the Mac and she brought us to her working pub. Is quite comfortable and relaxing. My friend did accompany us for awhile but due to her family matter, she have to leave immdiately. We had wild, fun and jks. Yeah! Anyway, tis is our first experience! haha.. so.. SHH... i will upload some of our pics up. U will notices tat each pic DOESNT have my face!

2008-09-29T11:37:00.000-07:00

Weekends working are finally over again. So tired, bones are aching. Yawh... Zzz... Today i slept till 4 plus in the afternoon. Actually, i suppose to have a leadership training at belestiar ITE. Its a course for the camp. Due to my laziness, i didnt turn up for the course training. Slacking whole day at home, so boring.. now i got something very important to say:

I finally let go my both sides, for all of our own good, for our happiness. i chose to give up on who i love and told both gals to find better guys. There are more better guys than me out there somewhere. i am a dishonest and stubborn guy. i wont let any gals know wat i am feeling. Tats me and tats no way i can change. Tats all about today.

2008-09-26T09:50:00.000-07:00

hello! tis is my first post for my very first own blog.i spent abt 4 hours on creating tis blogskin. Well, last night i nv slept well, so just got up the bed and tot of wat to do before i go off to belestiar ITE for the Baze Camp. Tats when i decided to create my own skin using dreamwaver. Frm early 6 in the morning till 10, i completed abt most of it. Of cus, there were some parts wont worked. I asked winston for help. Asked him where to touch up and where were the mistakes. Finally the blogskin is done. Yeah! Now blogging my first post to it. Finish! From now on, i will be using tis new blog. =)

Its tym for me to enter my wanderland. Be Gone! Working tml! Power up!